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When Losing Everything Is Everything You Wanted

by Departures

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1.
Swallowed up, we're falling off the edge
2.
Swallowed Up 03:47
Swallowed up by another hollow year Sleepless hours, just wishing it away Swallowed up by another hollow year Too many wasted hours Trapped inside this dying love Walking half asleep Through all these woken dreams Hoping one more step Will take me where I want to be So far away from this autumn of our love And so far away from all the joy that I gave up Inside this woken dream I dig out both my eyes and lock away my tongue Inside this woken dream I’d said all I could say And destroyed our yesterdays Sorrow swept through us Hammered at the cracks Until our little world Had fallen apart Clinging on so tightly To our dying love Clinging on so tightly I brace myself for the worst Hiding my red eyes I place my head inside my hands Those red eyes give everything away Those red eyes Give me all away I don’t want to exist inside this dying love This dying love has woken me to often This hurtful love as led my heart to hide away This hurtful love has woken me to often This dying love as led my heart to hide away I don’t want to exist outside our dying love I don’t want to exist inside this hurtful love
3.
Sunday 04:00
Walking this concrete wishing for the rain Wishing for the rain without a cloud in the sky Walking this concrete feeling so lost Feeling so lost so close to your front door It’s when the sun catches my eye Strikes my heart every Sunday morning It’s when I think of you most And my heart sinks in mourning I’ve never been back to see you All alone in the ground Where gold etched letters Scream your name out loud “Don’t worry” said the fear in his eyes “Don’t worry son, I’m just waiting to die” I’ll walk up and down these streets These old familiar streets But the concrete Won’t feel like home to me
4.
This is the disappointment, It's all unravelling This is us unravelling Passing out on these pillows that we used to share, Lying to myself, helpless with myself Thinking through dead end memories What did you really mean to me? Sick to my stomach Just staring at these four walls Its the saddest sight, I've not slept enough tonight I've tried to talk myself out of this, but I'm all out of words In this love story absent of the love, Standing so close together But our hearts are beating out of time Clasping hands so tightly but we're barely holding on I have to let you know This goodbye will leave a stain on my mind And as the words linger on our lips, With this dying breath, we hang our heads So as the train pulls away I'll tell myself that I'm okay without you And as my heart begins to pull away, I tell myself i'll be okay And I don't miss you, I'm not missing you
5.
Falling short of everything you ever thought you'd be Losing hope in happy memories Trapped in a life you never thought would be yours Left to exist in denial Weeks come and go wishing you could be someone else But your dead weight is pulling you apart Sitting outside of everything Waiting for a life to start These are your salad days And they're quickly rotting away Scratching out an existence against the backdrop of a troubled life, Losing all your momentum to the pulsing of fluorescent lights Scratching out an existence against the backdrop of a troubled life, Losing all your momentum to the soundtrack of fluorescent lights Just left screaming into open silence Of "what could have been's" and "I wish I'd tried harder's" Longing to be someone else, wishing to be someone else
6.
Remembrance 02:40
Waking up so cold In this bed I’ve laced with sweat Dripping in all my “used to be’s” As I start to reminisce, I start to breathe it in That nostalgic air I remember thinking Those were the days when the rain couldn't fall I remember the deep blue skies And not having a fucking care in the world But I know it’s not real And I can’t escape this This air has filled my lungs And I can’t breathe out This nostalgic air is so fucking stale How could I forget? All the horror and all the regret Those were never our beautiful days (forgetting, forgetting) They will always be our darker days (forgetting, forgetting) We were living through our darker days Forgetting, forgetting
7.
Everything's the same,feeling so fucking drained Voice stretched out across discordant tones that fill up my life Maybe I'm just wrapped up in self pity Or maybe it's the thought of all this repetition My head is pounding, But it's only silence coming out these headphones I'll wait forever on a tomorrow that never comes, It's all I have Driving but I can't see the road anymore, I always seem to miss the turn off My tank is running so low It's running scared because I've got nowhere to go I've waited through this life, Wading through a life I barely know as my own, Giving up, instead of growing up It's all I've ever known The cycle has to end And I'm still waiting I'm just waiting for my guiding light to reignite All my teenage dreams are coming back to laugh at me But I'm climbing out this fucking hole It's taking 24 years to dig I'm waiting for my guiding light to reignite
8.
I opened the car door and climbed inside Trembling hands clutching broken pride Stare through misted glass as my thoughts rewind I was counting every breath, I was counting on the end I just wanted a way out As I pull out the street, it's now totally out of reach And I keep repeating, I don't care This is what it's like when losing everything is everything that you wanted I should have cut out my tongue and filled that room with silence, That silence would never have brought me here But sitting in this front seat as the mist begins to clear I've never seen the rain look so beautiful So now it's like our hands never touched, It's like we never said goodbye I couldn't have given it all away, because it was never really mine I'll always cherish this Friday night, holding my pride so fucking tight
9.
My world is upside down Everything is starting to fade out I dream of living in brighter days And not feeling so fucking far away My world is upside down All I can do is wait this out With my heart in my mouth I guess I’ll have to wait this out I guess I'll have to wait it out Take me out tonight I feel like losing my fucking mind Please take me out tonight I don’t need to see beauty, I just need to feel alive I thought this was over, that’s what you used to say I thought this was over too I never thought you could bring sorrow my way Trying to figure out how we got this far I think it’d rather just forget Please forget me And I’ll forget us Can we forget the way we were
10.
It’s those same sad eyes Those distant familiar red eyes Looking through me with all their honesty I always thought that I was by myself Holding on alone, I didn’t need anyone’s help But now you've taken my hand and all the fear is gone You’ve taken my hand and I’m ready to fall Over the edge This is us falling off the edge.

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released June 28, 2011

recorded at Cro's Nest Studios by Sam Thredder, mastered by Jay Maas.

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