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Teenage Haze

by Departures

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1.
Drained Out 03:43
A disappearing smile across a face where love once grew I left it all behind for the chance of something new I've seen what happens when all the love drains out I've seen what's left of a love stained in doubt I thought I couldn't leave everything behind But I've come so far It's never rung more true That "you can't miss what you forget" I could always look back and say that I've had better times, easier times And everything was drenched in so much hope But that lie only stretches out so far The reality will only stretch so far All those forced smiles and torrid long goodbyes It was all that we had, it was all just dying out I thought I couldn't leave everything behind But I've come so far I thought this would get harder But it's getting easier with every step I take I was dragging my heels until my feet fell off Just to stand in front of you Bite my fingernails down to the knuckles And force that smile you'd seen too many times before You held my hand, but it wasn't the same I woke up next to you, but it wasn't the same We kissed, but it wasn't the same
2.
Making Maps 03:38
I watch the second hand As it stumbles past that number 12 It's such a vicious hand That pushes everything away from me So young, with all the time in the world You run and hide Mapping out so many dreams, so many plans When so much is new The ticking of the clock is just to quiet to hear When so much is new, nothing seems to matter Time etches itself across your face The ticking just gets louder Those maps that we made when we were young They start to fray and tear at the edges The places we wanted to go slowly disappear And when the ticking stops, and we all notice the silence It's the sound we could all hear, but we chose to ignore it It's the sound we could all hear, but we all chose to ignore it As we keep growing up, we're just waiting for the ticking to stop And as we start giving up, that sound keeps on getting louder
3.
21 03:20
Getting to grips with losing control There are some things that I think you should know That all the scars that I can't help but show Are like hands that grip tightly around my throat And I'm still picking apart that winter night we found ourselves falling out of love Piecing together all the words you said that I can't quite remember It keeps playing over and over and over in my head I think you should hear this one last time Even though you'll never listen I still count every step to where you used to be While I carry this weight you've given me I still count every step to where you used to be Each step I take runs through my bones, I want you to know that I'm trying I know I don't want to see you but I can't help myself I keep trying to say goodbye I can't find the words For what it's now worth I wish I'd never met you I've tried to say goodbye, so many fucking times But those years are always on my mind
4.
My fair-weather friend, I can never tell if I'm happy to see you again Those familiar roads seem to welcome me They show me the way home, is this where I need to be? My teenage haze spent under these dim lights The came and went too fucking fast The tears dry in too quickly, and the laughs die away Am I the only one left here? I've seen ghosts of my youth haunt this place Like someone walking by your window, I only barely recognise his face Only a glance at something you thought that you once knew Like someone walking by your window They disappear to quickly This can't be a dead end town, at least not for me It's not something that I give in to This place will never become just another word for regret So should we drink up and say our goodbyes through gritted teeth? My teenage haze spent under these dim lights The came and went too fucking fast I've seen ghosts of my youth haunt this place Like someone walking by your window, I only barely recognise his face Will we ever tell our story of how we made it out our old lives?
5.
Teenage Haze 01:46
6.
We're both still suffocating Waiting for something, waiting for nothing It's what I feared the most We're surrounded by lights Each one's a fucking ghost And each one shines out Remind me of what I used to be They never stayed for too long Where they fade so quickly We used to shine so bright And we're so fucking sick of new beginnings So fucking sick of this fresh new page If we go to sleep now, we don't have to see another day Never asked for this clean break We never need this brand new start I never needed a brand new start Just a different heart I used to think about where we'd be Could we meet outside of what we used to be The summer fades so quickly I used to think about where we'd be Could we meet outside of everything The summer fades so quickly It loses all of it's beauty Green turns to red then turns to gold, And the summer air it grows so cold
7.
There are so many promises that we make to each other But none that we really keep This is mine for you, and this one will last us Until we're taken off to sleep So if you start to fall, I'll be the hand that won't let go When you're all alone, I'll be that hand that won't let go And when your heart gives up And your lungs collapse, for the last time I'll be there with you, our hands entwined As you're taken off to sleep To whom this may concern, I've started to come to terms With how I've lived my life so far And made peace with the bad decisions I've made Life disappears to quickly to dwell on the mistakes There are parts of my life that I thought I'd wasted But they made me who I am If I keep on waiting for better days They'll never arrive I thought that I knew, I thought that I understood But the wheels keep turning over And the lights keep on rushing by, Nothing's standing still for anyone When you feel so much loss that your heart almost gives up When you feel so much loss everything is in focus When you feel so much loss, when you know that nothing lasts Death has taught me that all the colours will bleed out Death has taught me that each light will fade away
8.
There are no more chances left for us The sound of tired conversations coming from rooms where we never go fill the air around us And we never knew any names, we never fitted in Are we ready to just fade out? Why do we pour our hearts out into nothing? We let everyone see who we really are We give up everything, and we get nothing back And the cycle just keeps going Are we ready to just fade out Why do we attach ourselves to the one thing that makes us sick? We plant ourselves in the autumn soil As if we're waiting for that first frost That will take our fight away That will take our lives away Waiting on the first frost That will take our fight away, That will take our lives away We plant weeds in the frozen soil Just to prove that something has grown We plant ourselves in the frozen soil Just to prove that we've grown
9.
Small Steps 02:52
Walking down a path I've known so well Where the heat of the sun is hidden by the trees The noise of the distant cars Sounds like the hollow sound of that lonely sea And I pretend your hand is in mine I pretend our steps are together I pretend everything is fine I pretend that we're lost in each other For a moment I catch your stare And the moment lasts forever I pretend everything is fine I pretend that we're lost in each other If I knew a way back, I wouldn't take it This path is all I've known, This path is all I've been left with My feet take me to the edge Out from under the trees The sun it splits my eyes And I don't have to pretend

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released November 22, 2012

Recorded August 2012 at The Ranch Production House in Southampton. Produced, mixed and mastered by Neil Kennedy.

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