Teenage Haze

by Departures

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released November 22, 2012

Recorded August 2012 at The Ranch Production House in Southampton. Produced, mixed and mastered by Neil Kennedy.

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Track Name: Drained Out
A disappearing smile across a face where love once grew
I left it all behind for the chance of something new
I've seen what happens when all the love drains out
I've seen what's left of a love stained in doubt

I thought I couldn't leave everything behind
But I've come so far
It's never rung more true
That "you can't miss what you forget"

I could always look back and say that I've had better times, easier times
And everything was drenched in so much hope
But that lie only stretches out so far
The reality will only stretch so far

All those forced smiles and torrid long goodbyes
It was all that we had, it was all just dying out

I thought I couldn't leave everything behind
But I've come so far
I thought this would get harder
But it's getting easier with every step I take

I was dragging my heels until my feet fell off
Just to stand in front of you
Bite my fingernails down to the knuckles
And force that smile you'd seen too many times before

You held my hand, but it wasn't the same
I woke up next to you, but it wasn't the same
We kissed, but it wasn't the same
Track Name: Making Maps
I watch the second hand
As it stumbles past that number 12
It's such a vicious hand
That pushes everything away from me

So young, with all the time in the world
You run and hide
Mapping out so many dreams, so many plans

When so much is new
The ticking of the clock is just to quiet to hear
When so much is new, nothing seems to matter

Time etches itself across your face
The ticking just gets louder

Those maps that we made when we were young
They start to fray and tear at the edges
The places we wanted to go slowly disappear

And when the ticking stops, and we all notice the silence
It's the sound we could all hear, but we chose to ignore it

It's the sound we could all hear, but we all chose to ignore it

As we keep growing up, we're just waiting for the ticking to stop
And as we start giving up, that sound keeps on getting louder
Track Name: 21
Getting to grips with losing control
There are some things that I think you should know
That all the scars that I can't help but show
Are like hands that grip tightly around my throat

And I'm still picking apart that winter night we found ourselves falling out of love

Piecing together all the words you said that I can't quite remember
It keeps playing over and over and over in my head

I think you should hear this one last time
Even though you'll never listen

I still count every step to where you used to be
While I carry this weight you've given me
I still count every step to where you used to be
Each step I take runs through my bones,
I want you to know that I'm trying
I know I don't want to see you but I can't help myself

I keep trying to say goodbye
I can't find the words
For what it's now worth
I wish I'd never met you

I've tried to say goodbye, so many fucking times
But those years are always on my mind
Track Name: The Home Stretch
My fair-weather friend,
I can never tell if I'm happy to see you again
Those familiar roads seem to welcome me
They show me the way home, is this where I need to be?

My teenage haze spent under these dim lights
The came and went too fucking fast
The tears dry in too quickly, and the laughs die away
Am I the only one left here?

I've seen ghosts of my youth haunt this place
Like someone walking by your window,
I only barely recognise his face
Only a glance at something you thought that you once knew
Like someone walking by your window
They disappear to quickly

This can't be a dead end town, at least not for me
It's not something that I give in to
This place will never become just another word for regret

So should we drink up and say our goodbyes through gritted teeth?

My teenage haze spent under these dim lights
The came and went too fucking fast
I've seen ghosts of my youth haunt this place
Like someone walking by your window,
I only barely recognise his face

Will we ever tell our story of how we made it out our old lives?
Track Name: Those Miles Meant Everything
We're both still suffocating
Waiting for something, waiting for nothing
It's what I feared the most
We're surrounded by lights

Each one's a fucking ghost
And each one shines out
Remind me of what I used to be
They never stayed for too long

Where they fade so quickly
We used to shine so bright

And we're so fucking sick of new beginnings
So fucking sick of this fresh new page
If we go to sleep now, we don't have to see another day

Never asked for this clean break
We never need this brand new start
I never needed a brand new start
Just a different heart

I used to think about where we'd be
Could we meet outside of what we used to be
The summer fades so quickly
I used to think about where we'd be
Could we meet outside of everything
The summer fades so quickly
It loses all of it's beauty

Green turns to red then turns to gold,
And the summer air it grows so cold
Track Name: Where The Time Will Go
There are so many promises that we make to each other
But none that we really keep
This is mine for you, and this one will last us
Until we're taken off to sleep

So if you start to fall, I'll be the hand that won't let go
When you're all alone, I'll be that hand that won't let go

And when your heart gives up
And your lungs collapse, for the last time
I'll be there with you, our hands entwined
As you're taken off to sleep

To whom this may concern, I've started to come to terms
With how I've lived my life so far
And made peace with the bad decisions I've made
Life disappears to quickly to dwell on the mistakes

There are parts of my life that I thought I'd wasted
But they made me who I am
If I keep on waiting for better days
They'll never arrive

I thought that I knew, I thought that I understood
But the wheels keep turning over
And the lights keep on rushing by,
Nothing's standing still for anyone

When you feel so much loss that your heart almost gives up
When you feel so much loss everything is in focus
When you feel so much loss, when you know that nothing lasts

Death has taught me that all the colours will bleed out
Death has taught me that each light will fade away
Track Name: Planting Weeds
There are no more chances left for us
The sound of tired conversations coming from rooms where we never go fill the air around us
And we never knew any names, we never fitted in
Are we ready to just fade out?

Why do we pour our hearts out into nothing?
We let everyone see who we really are
We give up everything, and we get nothing back
And the cycle just keeps going
Are we ready to just fade out

Why do we attach ourselves to the one thing that makes us sick?

We plant ourselves in the autumn soil
As if we're waiting for that first frost
That will take our fight away
That will take our lives away

Waiting on the first frost
That will take our fight away,
That will take our lives away

We plant weeds in the frozen soil
Just to prove that something has grown
We plant ourselves in the frozen soil
Just to prove that we've grown
Track Name: Small Steps
Walking down a path I've known so well
Where the heat of the sun is hidden by the trees
The noise of the distant cars
Sounds like the hollow sound of that lonely sea

And I pretend your hand is in mine
I pretend our steps are together
I pretend everything is fine
I pretend that we're lost in each other

For a moment I catch your stare
And the moment lasts forever
I pretend everything is fine
I pretend that we're lost in each other

If I knew a way back, I wouldn't take it
This path is all I've known,
This path is all I've been left with

My feet take me to the edge
Out from under the trees
The sun it splits my eyes
And I don't have to pretend